The above, seems to be my most familiar way of feeling. So can they not be fixed with chemicals? (SSRI or something of that nature). I believe thoughts and feelings, although intangible, are a result of chemical reactions. sound like they work? I'm very convinced that my range of emotions is brought on by chemical imbalances. I feel I've been reduced to a faint glowing ember, and I'm coming very close to just putting it out, with either suicide, or succumbing to the depressed lifestyle of therapy and pills. It's very hard to convince myself that there's no problem, because my brain is trying so strongly to tell my body "OH GOD, THIS IS BAD! DEFINITELY NOT GOOD!" It's just a general anxiety from all aspects of everything. I'm not about to diagnose myself with OCD.īut the feelings I get are so ridiculously irrational. And this leaves little to form positive emotions about my situation, rather that just dealing with it. I seem to be getting better at that, but I feel like I'm using most of my energy to combat destructive thinking. This, I'm sure I can work on, by catching my processes in the act. I keep thinking about what will be the best for me in every situation, or, I guess I should say I keep thinking about how situations are less than ideal. "Living" is almost too overwhelming for me. Path of least resistance has ALWAYS been the way I do things, obsessively, and compulsively. I live most of my life through mental processes rather than physical engagement.
I'm 18 and I'm convinced my brain has been stopping me from ever being content.
Anywho, here goes the expected self indulgent cry for help. *Logs On*)Įvery time I attempt it, I think I leave with more disorders than I came with.
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